My little voice and I have become closer, more in tune with each other over the last months. She has two sides though and they both fight for control.
Most of the time, mine is an encourager, a dreamer, a planner, a big fan of ME! Saying things like, you are an awesome, bad-ass, look what you can do, you've got this, you can't fail because you will not stop until you succeed! You can always find the good in people and choose to focus on that good part. You can depend on you, because you will never, ever let yourself down! You are GOOD!
Then the opposing side chimes in with phrases like, how stupid can someone be to not recognize that someone doesn't love you for years! Look how far into denial a person can go! You are too loud, too open with broken boundaries, you can really screw up! You can't boil water, you can't even follow directions on a box of macaroni correctly. You touch everything with dirty, sticky hands. Yada, yada, yada.....
I shout back at her to shut up, stop it, silence!
She whispers to me as I drift off to my twilight sleep....you are smart, strong, capable, & worthy. You are not perfect and that's OK. Yes, you will fail & you will fall but you will persevere! You will walk through the fire & not be consumed. Burned, yes, but not consumed.
PS: What does your little voice tell you?
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